Carole Radziwill RHONY Open Letter To Fans Exclusive

Carole Radziwill RHONY

Open Letter!

This season has been emotional for Real Housewives of New York City star Carole Radziwill, especially with last night’s episode where she traveled to England with Dorinda Medley to collect her husband Anthony‘s ashes. Today, Radziwill approached us to share an open letter to her fans exclusive here. What did she have to say?

Carole Radziwill RHONY Open Letter To Fans Exclusive

Radziwill gave us the following to share with all of you:

Thank you so much for all your kind words this past week on social media and elsewhere. I watched tonight’s episode with equal parts fear and gratitude. Fear because, well, its the show, and gratitude because Bravo treated my story with grace and honesty. I’ve been on this show for three seasons now (can you believe it!) and it has been good, bad, and ugly. But the one constant is the integrity I try to bring to each story. I do not chase silly drama for the sake of story lines, though it sometimes seems to find me. (I’ve found myself in hot water from time to time). I do not create events for the sake of television. I try to keep it as honest and real as I can with television crews following me around.

What you see on the show is what is happening in my life. It’s as real as reality can be. The London story is no different, except that it was a story I was reluctant to tell for many years. And one I almost didn’t tell. Those who watch know that my husband’s family and my past life is not something I discuss on camera. I wrote a memoir years ago and everything I have to say about that part of my life is there, in that one place, the end. But life is funny. Just when you think you’ve written an ending a plot point pops up. My latest one came in the form of an email from the church where I had interned my late husband’s ashes on the one year anniversary of his death, over 15 years ago. It was the strangest request — please come pick up your husband’s urn. Luckily, Anthony left me with the gift of his beautiful sense of humor. No one could have appreciated this twist of fate more than him. Off to London I went.

It took me some time to allow Bravo to follow that story. Initially, I said no. I couldn’t imagine talking about this part of my life so publicly. I called Father Damien in London and we had a long talk. I told him how pleased I was to hear from him and how excited I was to bring the urn back home. I told him what had transpired in my life during the past 15 years — the ups, the mediums, the downs and the missing. I told him about the heartbreak and joy. I also told him about the television show. He was kind and soft-spoken. He heard me and he advised.

As this was happening, I remembered a promise I made to myself after Anthony’s death that I would listen to what the universe was putting in front of me — the good, the bad, and the weird —  and I would follow it with as much courage as I could muster. For better or worse I signed on to this show. And here I am. Sure, I cried a bit and that is always embarrassing to me to watch but in the end, as I watched it, I felt proud. Proud that I had the courage to talk about my husband. Proud, again, of the life we built together and proud of the life I have built since.

My heartbreak isn’t harder than anyone else’s. We all have to endure this life journey. Mine has brought me immense joy and immense pain. I’ve loved and lost. And like everyone else who has done that, I’m more hesitant now. Our hearts are not as resilient as we pretend them to be. It’s one thing to post uplifting inspirational words by day, it’s another thing to try to sleep with the scars at night.

A lasting gift from Anthony is the relationship I have with his mother. We share his memory together, and we share his loss. We share what was and what might have been. She is a graceful and elegant woman who has endured much joy and much sadness of her own, and with great strength. We enjoy each other’s company. We have a sense of calm and history and peace with each other, and also respect, that no one else could ever know or understand except the two of us. We experienced something alone and together that our closest friends, even, will never know. Life is an overwhelming bundle of loose threads. The ones you can hang on to are precious.

Thank you so much, Dorinda Medley, for sharing your beautiful story with me and allowing me to share mine.

Love and strength to all of you. xoxo”

We are touched she decided to share such a beautiful sentiment via our blog.

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