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Teresa- Gabriella Couldn't Breathe When I Said Goodbye

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Today is the day that Real Housewives of New Jersey star Teresa Giudice officially breaks her silence on what went down in prison with the release of her new bookTurning The Tables. In the book, she describes what it was like saying goodbye to her daughters. What did she write?

Teresa Giudice Book Excerpt Gabriella Couldn’t Breathe When I Said Goodbye

“We all lay down on the big bed in my room,” Giudice wrote, about gathering her family to say goodbye. “All six of us. I told the girls, ‘Mommy has to leave.’”

Gabriella, who was 10 at the time, got so hysterical, she couldn’t even breathe,” Giudice continued. “She usually held her feelings inside, but now she was inconsolable. When Joe’s father died, all the girls had gotten very emotional. They love their grandparents so much. We are all very close. They cried a lot. But this was 10 times worse than that. I held Gabriella and told her it was going to be okay — even though I knew it might not be. What else could I do?”

Her other daughters were equally devastated, as Giudice described that, “Audriana, my baby, who was only 5 at the time, started to cry. Huge, heaving sobs. Then Milania, who was 8 at the time, started up, followed by Gia, then finally, me and Joe. We lay there, a tangled mess of arms and legs, hugging each other and crying. Me, Joe and Gia, bless her heart, tried to calm the little ones down as best we could. This was tearing my heart out, but I didn’t let them see that. I couldn’t. I had to be strong for them. They were my focus — not me. In true Milania fashion, she wiped her tears on my sleeve and we all laughed.”

“But as I held my girls and kissed them on their cheeks and on their foreheads,” Giudice added, “I started to get mad. Instead of having more time with my babies, I had to leave for prison in the middle of the night while they were sleeping,” Giudice noted of how she tried to avoid attention when checking into prison last year. “This is how bad things had gotten. This whole thing was totally out of control. How had it come to this?”

“At that moment, I knew things had to change,” Giudice claimed. “That I would use my time in prison to rethink things. I was going to come out of prison a better person and try to make things right again in my life. We lay there for about an hour and a half. Then I knew it was time to start putting the girls to bed and say my goodbyes. This was going to be hardest part of all. I had dreaded this moment for months. And now it was here.”

Stay tuned today for more Teresa news, including coverage of her interviews and more from her book.

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